come a little bit closer baby. let me smoke your personality, your unique ways…..your never heard before description about your day at work at the food court cleaning up the trash. I love you and I’ve been waiting all day for you in my unemployed happy state to be made even happier by your presence and now that you’re here I think i’ll kiss you on the lips and then go and smoke and drink some more.
that i belong with my shadow
16 Janand some pray all day
i wait till 4 pm and make my first drink
i guess we prayer together at 4.
revisiting houdini
1 Octthe plate moved across the counter without any human effort.
I knew it!
I knew there was magic in the world!
everyone smells like a barn at some point during their lives
27 Septhey shoot us these ethnic country culture definitions.
they inject them into us from hour one in the circumcision baptism birth certificate room and that arouses a lot of suspicion in me.
i treat a man where he’s at. he’s a country himself and so that makes about 8 billion countries or however many freaking people there are on this planet and screw international mercantile cooperation. give me the potato farm and a shack in the back to get drunk before more picking in the morning when some new guy will get off the bus and he’ll have his way of pissing and his drug of choice will be the songs he sings and we’ll get drunk and the bus comes everyday.
8 billion countries.
the ten of diamonds
14 Sepi’ve seen religious skirts and leather pants and I love McDonalds coffee and all this just sort of happened and it must be magic and we’re gonna find a four pillar porch or a green park bench and sit and chug chinese tea or portugal wine and we’ll remove our hands from our pockets and shake around and maybe we’ll walk east and west and collect cans and get enough aluminum trade in barter for some coins to get us a cigar and we’ll smoke it behind the bakery and drink what’s left of the portugal wine and we’ll think about religious skirts and leather pants and McDonalds coffee again and we’ll know that it’s magic and then the mood will change and things won’t seem so magical anymore, but we will hear of an old friend who is grey and needs a cane and never stops talking and loosens people from their grips and has lots of love to give and we’ll know it’s magic.
drag race fumes
10 Julbetter get going
better get going what you need to do
dance on a bar room rail
suck a skunk tit
eat a cherubim
write a manifesto
do it fast because Andy Wilkins just died and he was only 23 and renal cancer got him
and that scares me and so
i better get going,
better get going what I need to do
dance on a bar room rail
or i already said that?
like death,
always doing its same god damn thing,
snuffing us out,
did I tell you I love you?
well, I do
and the coupon clipper and lotto buyers and business high rises too.
breakfast with rimbaud
10 Juli guess it was superficial to look up your photo on the internet,
to see what you look like now,
but it was no different than my breakfast.
i didn’t eat. I injected coffee,
looking for a fix,
looking for you
and you weren’t there,
and the coffee didn’t do much either,
so i grabbed rimbaud’s “season of hell” and read a few pages and didn’t understand a damn thing, but knowing nothing smarted me, it had me feeling like a big loser, a nobody, an ignoramus, and oh so ordinary, so then i said fuck it and put the book down and downed the rest of my coffee and walked around new neighborhoods i’d never seen before and heard whistles and car honks and catcalls and “how are you my beautiful stranger?” in private bus cabins and when i arrived back home which has cobwebs and no guest room, i didn’t feel the need to read more Rimbaud…instead i thought about my upstairs neighbor. He’s retired like Rimbaud and plays tennis and i want that life too and so maybe i’ll ask him if he wants to play tennis and we can play and take a beer at Lefty’s Saloon after we play and then who knows, life might seem ok again for us in what suddenly seemed to be not Rimbaud’s “season of hell.”
i remember this from a long time ago and I guess it was love
7 Julthe instant heaven of hands touching